RIP Sooshi

No words can describe how incredibly devastated I am right now. I just had to say goodbye to the sweetest kitty I've ever had, Sooshi. Saying I loved her is an understatement. She was my little child. She greeted me at the door, slept with me at night, and always wanted to be where I was. She was diagnosed with carcinoma in her liver and spleen and because the cancer was throughout her liver, surgery wasn't an option. Carcinoma doesn't respond to chemotherapy, either. We kept her alive and comfortable as long as we could without her quality of life being too poor. Today was the day....the incredibly SAD day. We had a mobile vet come over and sedate her and put her to sleep. Seeing my poor baby lifeless is traumatic in itself, but thinking she's around the corner or randomly wanting to say her name is worse. Sooshi was a huge part of my life. I can't stop crying- I know I will...but right now it just hurts so bad. :(